I have not posted here for a while.
Yes, I’ve been busy, but that’s the story of my life. I do find things to keep me busy. My career, my home, reading, exercising, cooking, cleaning, family, friends. . .
I have not been forgetful about you. You are at the top of my mind each morning when I wake. Each life moment that reminds me of you – there are many.
I think I’m just trying to be numb about it and not feel about it, because when I think about it . . . that you won’t speak to me . . . I feel so sad and self depricating . . . . and then I feel mad. What did I do? to deserve this? And then I realize I just need to let you come back to me on your own and gain a great deal of acceptance. . .
But then I’d rather just be numb about it.
About Sandy
I was married at age 19 and had my son when I was 24 years old. When he was nearly 2 years old I decided to leave my husband. We had nothing in common. I was so lonely. He was an avid hunter and fisherman and while I tried to get into hunting and fishing it just was not my thing. While I was thrilled to be a mom, I spent many lonely weekends with my son.
Ironically when I separated from my husband, my husband fought for sole custody and moved my son 1,000 miles away from me. I paid child support and found ways to be with my son throughout the years. We developed a wonderful relationship and he grew into a responsible young man.
When he was 26 years old his grandfather passed away and he decided to cut me out of his life . . . I set up this website to find some type of solace and speak to my son . . .
Silence Outloud 