not in shock anymore. But loved this. . . instead of going into a depressed state I enjoy being in this shock like state and forgetting that you don’t want to talk to me . . .
Some days I’m ok. I don’t feel sad that you don’t talk to me. Don’t feel weepy. In fact I have healthy and happy thoughts.
Do wonder how you are and what you are doing and how you are feeling.
and reach for the phone to call you . . . as if you will take my call, just like you used to. Or you’d text me back and say “what’s up?”
But then it comes back to me . . . and instead of going into a depressed state I enjoy being in this shock like state and forgetting that you don’t want to talk to me, because it often, if not always, does not make sense to me.
I hope you are having a good life. Miss you. . . .
Silence Outloud 