I still don’t understand why you don’t want me in your life or you in my life? You are my only child. I see mothers and sons together on a daily basis, whether it be in a grocery store, driving down the road or on TV.

Mothers that have done horrible things to their sons don’t deserve to be in their lives or need forgiveness and understanding if there is room for that.

I have not done anything horrible to you.

I’ve lost patience with you. I’ve not always listened as I should. I spoiled you so much, feeling guilty for divorcing your dad and you being so far away. I’ve acted pitiful in front of you and broken. I know I’m not perfect. Giving birth to you was painful and hard but I felt so blessed to birth you and be your mother.

I love and miss you so dearly and deeply

Probably my biggest fault is I don’t understand why you have abandoned me. What was so terrible that I did besides just being human and imperfect? For saying one thing wrong when inquiring about your grandfather’s death.

You stopped wanting anything to do with me when you were 26. You are 37 years old now and I still don’t know why . . .

Mom