Author Archives: Sandy

It’s been 2 1/2 years since I’ve posted something here. I’m still missing you. I’m still loving you. Even though I feel angry about your behavior toward me and really hate it. Will I ever see you again? Will you … Continue reading →

My mom died two months ago – July 29, 2023. I can’t believe she’s gone. I miss her so much. She asked about Josh often. “Have you heard from him?” she’d ask. “How is Josh doing?” . . .She was … Continue reading →

When I was me at 19 year old (picture below, not great, but the essense of a sweet not jaded 19 year old). . . I trusted everyone, loved and appreciated everyone. I was good, excellent, in school and relationships. … Continue reading →

I still don’t understand why you don’t want me in your life or you in my life? You are my only child. I see mothers and sons together on a daily basis, whether it be in a grocery store, driving … Continue reading →

Originally posted on Silence Outloud:
Some days I’m ok.  I don’t feel sad that you don’t talk to me.  Don’t feel weepy.  In fact I have healthy and happy thoughts. Do wonder how you are and what you are doing…

Josh, my son, texted me yesterday and said I needed to apologize again for what I did when his grandfather died, and he was informed about my blog today – by a client – and not surprised but very disappointed. … Continue reading →

One more day left in 2021 and I have not heard a word from you or about you. I was sitting on the couch with my mother – your grandmother, Agnes – on Christmas Eve and she asked me if … Continue reading →

I know some day you will come back into my life. I just wonder when? I hope you are happy and safe. I’m sending you love and light, Josh, my son. Love, Mom

This email is from my narcissist sister Katie (Kathleen) written to my siblings and her children (my nieces and nephew). It’s all a big fat lie and she refuses to apologize for writing such hateful, untrue information. I did let … Continue reading →

Grief – some days it’s practically gone other days is like a tsunami but it’s always here in my head, my heart, my body and being. I grieve for you Josh. I’ve lost you and it hurts my soul. It’s … Continue reading →