Author Archives: Sandy

Mornings are the hardest.  I wake up and the first thing I think about is my loss of you, Josh.   It’s too early to numb my feelings with red wine, instead tears and sadness come.  It’s a real personal struggle … Continue reading →

I am a perfectionist, so thankfully I have good resource skills to resolve problems and make most things right and have made it through my first 59 years. I can’t always make things right.  I have a lot of anxiety … Continue reading →

I finally have a way to describe how devastated I am that you are no longer in my life.  It’s a pandemic of sad emotions. I hope you are safe and healthy. Mom  

and nobody wants to talk about it.  Family members know you have cut me out of your life.  They even have had the nerve to become your friend on Facebook and befriend you – inviting you to family reunions and … Continue reading →

We hope that our worries don’t come true and we worry that our hopes won’t come true.  I am no longer hopeful that you will come back into my life . . . but still working on not worrying about … Continue reading →

Josh, I didn’t write anything here the entire year 2019.  I’m numb, but when I really think about you, I’m really angry and I hate you.  How could you cut yourself out of my life and me out of yours?  … Continue reading →

It has been 7 years since August 2011.  I was hoping you would get the 7 year itch and change your mind.  Change your mind to accept me back into your life . . . August came and now is … Continue reading →

Today is the 20 year anniversary after Princess Diana’s death. On a news interview her son said he was so sad at the funeral but felt his mom walking next to him. This made me cry. I want that from … Continue reading →